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trying to keep track of what i'm doing here!! already forgot to update most days in 2025 whoops but ~baby steps~... scroll down for BLOGs, with excerpts to see if u care! (i planned to get back to something RSS-y, but in the over a year !!! since /greg & recursers made nyc noise 2.0, i haven't been v blog-y...)
2025-01-15: brainstorming for rent-rollback push via "rent-stabilized census"; to-do = scrape city's rent-stabilized building lists (pdfs for mnhtn, bklyn, bronx, queens, staten island), then run addresses thru justfix who owns what tool to get approx number of TOTAL units per building.
2025-01-11: /radio: barely anything on "radio" rn, but adding here is a reminder to me also that it exists!! send me yr showz or otherwise tell me what to add
2025-01-04: /drone-party (partiful / palantir): + table of contents, p.s. to "gist" (partiful CEO continues to shill for palantir), palantir patents on which partiful CTO has inventor credits
2025-01-02: /tenants: under "if u rent here," good cause & local rent standard; under "having troubles?," tenant helpline + hotline, filing overcharge, free legal consults
––––––––– created /new, swapped w/ /misc in top menu (will think about where to put priority misc items; recently added insurance info, tho that's also on /covid...), updated /past
2025-01-01: /sites-like-this: + capeet (austria)
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2024-12-31: /access: condensed top, misc cleanup
––––––––– mutual aid etc. info to /community; added rent refusers sweep defense, living gallery
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2024-06-30 wooooof: just a general late-june note trying to stave off despair, i guess???? apology for being behind, thanks people who've donated, links to Great Thinkers like mariame kaba & brill bb (radio) & death panel (podcast) & books in tinyurl.com/FTPaywall folder like health communism. i was strugglin!! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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BLOG 2024-02-26 /half-access: "RIP half access; u were not gr8, but u were (in praise of the messy internet) ... this is a sad lil processing rant about name recognition, the fast-fading amateur internet, not letting resources die, & (scroll down) a set of bookmarks to state pages on the half access database as i back all of it up to the wayback machine. RIP to half access..."
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alt text: all caps, "WE DON'T USE PARTIFUL: ON SURVEILLANCE TECH, DISABILITY (IN)JUSTICE, & HOW WAR CRIMES FUNDED A PARTY APP"
BLOG / POST 2024-01-25 /drone-party: "WE DON'T USE PARTIFUL: on surveillance tech, disability (in)justice, & how war crimes funded a party app ... the cofounders of PARTIFUL worked for Thiel's most murderous baby, PALANTIR."
updating this page as new communities find & share the insta post (4.1k shares, as of 1/2/25); now includes palantir patents on which partiful's cto has inventor credits: tools of data aggregation, analysis, & display for a company that helps cops, the CIA, & the state of israel map social networks, "predict" who & what need policing, & lock people up...
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BLOG 2023-11-16: closing tabs: i had TOO MANY TABS open & they all felt v ~important~; blogged to share & also reassure myself that i wouldn't forget their contents i guess??? dispatches from gaza, tabs for contacting representatives (ask them to demand a ceasefire), tabs for contacting white house (ditto), For the People: A Leftist Library Project, REBUILD Transformative Justice Calendar, Anne Boyer resigns as poetry editor of NYT Magazine, Indictment Against #StopCopCity Organizers, grumpy tabs abt instagram, & way more
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BLOG / POST 2023-08-25: gr8 wknd mask up: "this is just a long meandering i'm putting as a caption on an insta post w/ screenshots of 8/25-27, an ABSURDLY GOOD WEEKEND FOR MUSIC ... alas i will be there for none of it bc i have been bested by covids :'( ... # for getting paxlovid even if you don't have a doctor (212-268-4319)" plus a lil about my ~personal health journey~
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alt text: pic of kwami winfield angled so you mostly see the three frankenstein'd trumpets in front of her, & text saying "WHY IS NASDAQ PRESENTING THIS?" the trumpets have been FUCKED WITH: one's missing valves & partially-wrapped in duct tape, there are extra lil spirals of wire, colorful thread & remnants of stickers... kwami has her hands on two of the trumpets (nails have a few specks of red nail polish, most has chipped off) & in the background's her dark, curly hair, but no face cuz she's looking down. trumpets are sitting on top of i think a mixer, with a cigarette & joint by the bells. pic was taken at trans-pecos, though you can't really tell; it was an early sound check, so there's light in the room.
BLOG / POST 2023-07-26: big tech big banks: "WHY IS NASDAQ PRESENTING THIS? ... MY VOTE: ORGS SHOULD NOT INVITE PPL TO PLAY EVENTS PRESENTED BY NASDAQ OR BANK OF AMERICA. LAUNDERING THE REPS OF EVIL ACTORS FOR CASH = BAD; MAKING "YOUR" ARTISTS APPEAR COMPLICIT? *UNACCEPTABLE* ..."
this started as a rant under a few events, & turned into an insta post about nonprofits presenting events in partnership with big banks. initial site text was a bit more uhhh ~aggro~ (e.g., "if you really respect a person, don't say their name with your mouth still dirty from the sisyphean task of trying to suck a big bank's dick clean!"), but by the time i took it to insta i had chilled out enough to be (i think) more measured & earnest, & didn't name specific orgs (tho i guess it was v clear who i meant lol). i never heard from roulette, but seems they stopped presenting events w/ bank of america –– & pioneer works' music director (legend justin frye, aka pc worship) was very cool, said PW didn't initially know about the partnership & took nasdaq off their website (indicated in follow-up post, tho it turned out they couldn't get signage taken down in-person, alas...).
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alt text: flyer, full text on rent rollback page; all caps & a QR code going to justfix's rent request tool. starts with "WE NEED INFO TO FIGHT DISPLACEMENT!!! REQUEST YOUR RENT HISTORY IN 30 SECONDS..."
BLOG 2023-07-07 /rent-rollback: blog about how we desperately need to fight rent overcharges before it's too late for anyone but rich people to live here; most of the city is being illegally overcharged, & you owe it to your self, your neighbors, & all who have been & will be displaced to at least take a minute to request your rent history & find out if you're overpaying by thousands a year!!! this led to the /tenants page.
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alt text: all caps: "ARE YOUR DEAD FRIENDS RESTING OR WRITHING IN THEIR GRAVES." side note: it's pretty much always all-caps with me, though this one's black text on white background; i usually do the opposite these days, thinking black images likely to stick out more on phones...
BLOG 2023-06-17: organize & die / honor yr dead: ...uhh woah forgot this one! i think it was related to the /rent-rollback stuff, the /summerstage horror-epiphany, & ambivalence about starting work on an accessibility database after the friend who would have most appreciated it had already died; looks like i rightly realized it was A Bit Heavy (maybe even melodramatic, tho it didn't feel it!) for insta & put it here instead... "ARE YOUR DEAD FRIENDS RESTING OR WRITHING IN THEIR GRAVES? I THINK MY MOMENTS OF DREAD ARE THAT QUESTION NEEDING AN ANSWER I CAN HEAR WITHOUT WINCING: WOULD MY ACTS OF REMEMBRANCE SETTLE OR DEVASTATE? I'M TIRED OF BREAKING MY OWN HEART... IT'S MAYBE FUNNY, BUT NOT A JOKE, TO SAY MY DEAD CAN'T REST WITH RENT THIS HIGH OR ADAMS IN OFFICE; THE TRAJECTORY OF THE CITY IS UNSUSTAINABLE, & HOW FUCKED WOULD IT BE TO LOSE WHAT WE LUV WITHOUT TRYING 2 SAVE IT? HONOR YOUR DEAD WITH THE DREAM OF LOWER RENT & PLEASURE OF COLLECTIVE POWER! ... I WISH US LUCK BUILDING LIVES THAT DO NOT MAKE US SAD!"
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BLOG 2023-06-11: on access: long thing about wanting to build a venue accessibility database. a lot of anticipatory apologetics: i felt like it would be presumptuous for me to try to build something like this by myself, & was trying to find someone more informed or better-resourced who could head the project... i was also frustrated with half access, a nonprofit that seemed to be getting hella funding for an out-of-date resource; i think i was hoping that if i shamed them a lil they would let me fix their website instead of making a new thing from scratch, but they fully disbanded ~8 months later.
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alt text: all caps, "ON SUMMERSTAGE, SPONSORED BY CAPITAL ONE, & OTHER BAD DREAMS"
BLOG / POST 2023-06-08 /summerstage: you know that thing in movies or a christmas carol or whatever, where Money'd Guy is visited by ghosts or has a time wharp or is otherwise made to realize how fully & terribly he has been A Fucked Up Capitalist, & then when he's returned to ~the present~ he's so relieved he gets mildly hysterical, yelling at everyone about how it's all going to be okay & he'll be different now??? okay well this was me doing that about the fact that for years, i listed summerstage (sponsored by capital one) events on nyc noise... & then one day, evidently during the weird hellish bad air of june 2023, i woke up in an extreme panic about it: i personally directed people to summerstage, sponsored by capital one –– & since capital one is a uniquely bad bank, it might have ruined someone's life. outta-nowhere horror experience of Stomach-Dropping Moral Clarity; my only comfort was that i still had time to tell everyone i know about how fucked up capital one is.
...so yeah anyway page is "fuck capital one" & "fuck live nation / ticketmaster" links, plus this insta post: "ON SUMMERSTAGE, SPONSORED BY CAPITAL ONE, & OTHER BAD DREAMS. ... LET'S TRY SOMETHING: ENTER THE NIGHTMARE OF FEELING CULPABLE FOR [CAPITAL ONE'S] ONGOING REIGN OF TERROR & HAVING NO TIME LEFT TO SAY YOU DIDN'T MEAN IT. …BUT IT'S ONLY A DREAM! YOU CAN SHAKE YOURSELF AWAKE; SHUDDER WITH RELIEF THAT THERE'S STILL TIME; DECIDE YOU MUST CHANGE YOUR LIFE; & GO ON REASSURED BY THE DEPTH OF YOUR OWN SOBERING FEAR. ... I WISH US ALL CLARIFYING NIGHTMARES ABOUT THE CHOICES WE MAKE IN THE POISON AIR! BE GAY. DO CRIME. MAKE NOISE."
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2023-check: on stickers & deferral: i'm v weird & avoidant about asking for donations, & this is one of 10,000 dumb things i did to postpone asking people to please give me money
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alt text: all caps, "AFTER JORDAN NEELY"
BLOG / POST 2023-05-06 /jordan-neely: excerpts of this made it to insta; it's meandering thinking through christina sharpe's writing on hysterical whiteness, whiteness & white people as police & the violent protection of property –– & what "we" can do, or anyway what i need to do, to stop being the kind of people who let jordan neely down.
"...some rambling abt the importance of radicalization, whiteness & complicity, carceral logics & abolition, & direct intervention. ... to first establish some norms:
• it is bad to kill people.
• even if they upset or frighten you; even if you are a scared b*tch; even if they cause you Actual Physical Harm (which neely did not).
• the pandemic has exacerbated the poisonous effects of white-supremacist capitalist patriarchy.
• there are sick people walking around looking for an excuse to kill someone.
• christina sharpe calls it "hysterical whiteness," this move from 'someone is upset & yelling' to 'i am in danger that justifies violence.'
• "Hysterical whiteness makes blackness the provoking agent of the mass hysteria that is the province of whiteness itself." (Ordinary Notes)
• the solution is not (yet still!) more cops. this happened because daniel penny [believed he] was being a cop, doing their work. this is how the carceral state operates.
• [sharpe:] 'Whiteness being a name for property and its violent protection.' ...
• for me, “accountability” means, when i’m able, responding to harm with questions; honest self-reflection; admitting both limits & capacity for harm.
• further: an understanding of what sh*t is By Design, & the ways i’m Caught Up.
• for me, EASY TRUTHS include: i would never put a person in a chokehold; i do not have violent impulses toward those i read as unwell or distraught.
• HARDER TRUTHS: when i read men like penny as “healthy” but violent (!), i am less likely to be patient or measured. i’ve had the experience of being (tho the word irks me) “triggered” by white men behaving violently. when this happens, i am less ~cool~ / commanding & more angry / shaky –– meaning, more likely to escalate, or to be dismissed. some of my attempts at intervention have not seemed 'successful.'
(though: you will rarely know if you succeed in saving someone's life, & you will definitely know if you fail.)
• TRUTH THAT SHOULD BE HARDEST BUT FEELS PRETTY NORMAL: when i see a lone stranger in crisis that doesn’t appear immediately life-threatening, i often walk away. (meaning: i would likely have avoided entering the same car as jordan neely if he seemed unwell.)
• idk what it means to see someone as both healthy & violent––or tbh what it means to see anyone as “healthy.” under any reasonable definition of the word, penny's actions were those of someone sick; people didn't intervene loudly & forcibly because they couldn't see it.
• i am trying to move toward an operating stance of something like, inappropriate behavior may mean a person is unwell. if they are causing harm, i will note this; if that harm is acute, i will do so loudly.
• there are lotsa things out there on de-escalating; hollaback's 5 Ds (Distract, Delegate, Document, Delay, & Direct) = a classic. (if you haven't already, go read that instead.)
• ... in this case that could have been something like, (loudly) say what seems wrong (& why); ask if they intend this wrong; suggest alternatives. [wrong] chokeholds can be fatal; [ask] are you trying to kill this person? [alternatives] if you need to restrain someone, it should be by their wrists.
... we need to get better. i luv our town & trains & am very, very, sorry we let jordan down."